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Author: Ryan Hellyer
Life is coming from you
You can be the master of your fate, you can be the captain of your soul. But you have to realise that life is coming from you and not at you. And that takes time. – YouTube short

My solution to unhappy feelings until February 2021

Downpour
I’ve always enjoyed a good walk in the rain in the city. It’s the one time when you be sure that nobody will be out and about. You end up mostly having the city to yourself for a short while. So when it started to downpour this afternoon, I donned my trusty raincoat and headed out for a midday walk.
Stereotypes
Some people don’t seem to get that although stereotypes have a kernel of truth to them, they’re just a kernel. Holding that kernel against a random person who happens to be from the broad category the stereotype comes from, is just arse holery of the highest order. – me
Caffeine experiment
After being caffeine free for 4 years, 6 months, and 29 days, I made an exception today at 13:00 for an experiment. I wanted to see what caffeine would do to me after such a long time away from it.
I had a very good day, but it was looking quite good from the outset anyway. I was ranting a bit, which I suspect was caused by a bit of extra aggression and agitation from the caffeine. It’s now 22:16 and I need to start winding down for bed, and I’m still feeling quite active and have zero interest in sleeping. So I took a diphenhydramine (mild sedative) to put me to sleep. When I was drinking a lot of caffeine, it never affected my sleep, but it most definitely has today.
I had 330 mL of Coke Zero, which was utterly disappointing and not how I remembered it. I also had a 250 mL Blue RedBull, which was surprisingly tasty. I don’t think I’ll be doing this again though. It has quenched my curiosity of what would happen to me when I consumed caffeine again, but the answer was “nothing good, but nothing particularly bad”.
Syde dinner
Huel breakfast from Liuba
Crash site – exactly 40 years later
I drove the route we were meant to complete on February 11th 1985, at the same time, on February 11th 2025. Mission accomplished. I didn’t crash this time.
Society and men
Society raised us. Society is wrong.
“men shouldn’t cry” … codswallop
“therapy is for the weak” … horseshit
The strongest men are those who face their fears and accept the emotions that come with it.